suicidal -- BEAUTIFUL GIRLS

im way too cool for ya boy. that's why it'll never work. i'll have you suicidal, suicidal when i say it's over. damn all these beautiful girls. they all wanna do your dirt. i'll have you suicidal, suicidal; when i say it's over.

new LSS. hahaha. =] gabo, christine lu & christa's new song for me. hahaha.

SCANDALOUS =]

sooo scandalous! hahahaha. god! raymark, you're a threat! hahahaha. =]] tsktsktsk. lingaw ang reco sa chryso. wa gyud ingani nga kabuang sa amo! hahaha.

FALLING AWAY

wasn't it enough to let you feel the sun? am i not worth every fall? we've gone too deep to just let this fly. so please hold on and let me save us, please hold on and let me save us.

ooh.

i wish.

i wish i could tell him what i feel. i wish i could tell him that im getting hurt more and more everyday. those words that came out from his mouth had never been out of my head. even if i try to forget it, it would still come back. i dont wanna cry for the rest of my life. i dont wanna suffer for more pain. but i guess, i might get hurt more if i leave him. i dont know what's he really up to. im scared to ask. im scared to know his answer. im scared. i thought i would be happy with him -- i was wrong. so wrong. i dont wanna expect anything more. i might just get hurt even more. i want to follow my friends -- their advices. but im afraid he'd still insult me -- like what he's been doing. i dont know what to do. i tired. i wanna get wasted. i wanna die. oh god!

:))

pt weak. haha. :))

im happy -- todaaaay! lalala. :))
for some reasons, im quite happy. haay. life nga naman! tsktsktsk.

CARNELIAN RECO THIS FRIDAY -- AUGUST 17, 2007.

* after RECO -- im going to KAMIKAZEE's concert. yea!!

LETTERS TO ME PLEASE! THANKS! :)) mwah!

stayin alive :))

' its a long cold road when you wake up and i dont have the strength to let you go. couldn't you believe that everything i said and did wasn't just deceiving? it makes me wish that i was never brought into this place. im here to say the things that matters - about the things that made us feel alive for so long, about the things that kept you at my sight when i was wrong. im crying alone tonight and i was wasting all of my life just thinking of you. so just come back we'll make it better. just come back i'll make it better. just come back i'll make it better than it ever was. '

is this a song? i received this as a text message and i was touched. :) to the person who sent this - you know who you are - i admire you. you loved her with all of you and you never gave up. that's what matters most, right? :) i hope that girl might read this post. i hope she would realize how lucky she was with the guy. i just wish both of you so much happiness. :)


it's been quite a long time since i have posted here. im still staying alive and going strong. unsa daw?! haha. :)) i have had heavy regrets these days. words come out at the wrong time. i just hope im right. what is this im saying?! hahaha. anyways, wish me luck through life. :)

CARNELIAN RECOLLECTION ON FRIDAY - August 17, 2007.

LETTERS TO ME PLEASE! thanks. :) mwah!